Why I Crave Big Cocks?

It all Started getting big boobs and the need to rub my clit everyday, one day I met him and he knew right away I was a Slut, he was a very knowledgeable guy and he knew how to treat me, so he started blindfold me at first not too often, but then I was blindfolded everyday to be fucked, and swallow cum.

Blindfolded and handcuffed, he made me suck cock everyday, just after I was done at my work, he make me go to his house or we went to mine, to be fucked and swallow cum, I noticed one day when I start sucking a cock blindfold, that it was not his cock, but I did not say anything, and continue sucking and swallow his cum, I heard a different voice saying some words when leaving, but I did not say anything, little by little with day in the middle, he made me swallow cum from strangers, I knew those cocks were from strangers, and I love it, I was sucking strangers' cocks everyday, and he was fucking me regularly and made me swallow his cum,

I was trained to cum blindfolded and handcuffed, at the same moment I was swallowing cum from strangers, I was able to finger my pussy to cum, but then he stops fucking me, and I did not have anybody to suck nor swallow cum, days passed by and then he told me I was allowed to buy dildos to cum, I was happy but I knew I needed more, I bought some small toys, but suddenly it was no good for me, I needed bigger dildos in order to cum, so I used big dildos and my pussy was started to getting gaped everyday, from big Toys, and I was very happy with them, but I was not swallowing cum for days.

He then ask me to sleep with dildoes everyday in my ass and pussy, it was uncomfortable at first, but then I realized I was very happy, and my pussy was not tight anymore, because I started using 2 big dildos for my pussy and ass, I need bigger toys to cum and I was hopeless, he knew I need it more, so he told me he had an idea to help me, he sent my pictures playing with dildos and swallowing cum, to all his friends, he asked me to offered my body to be fucked and humiliated, and I was ready to be used anyway he wanted, so one day, one of his friends comes to my house and ask me to swallow his cum, so I did immediately, he gave me his cum, a new collar and a big dildo, and then he makes me wear his cum in my street publicly, so everybody could see me.

I was being fuck by his friends randomly everyday, and drinking lots of cum, I was starting getting desperate to swallow cum everyday, even the plumber was sucked dry once, then I began to refrigerate the cumshots I was receiving, and I started eating cum for breakfast all over my meals, I became addicted to semen and drink his friends cum everyday, was so delicious and I was so happy.

I was fucked handcuffed in the ass by everyone, and received lots of cumshots all over my body, sometimes I stay all day with my body full of cum.

Once came a black guy, and I was afraid, because he was not one of his friends, but he was very athletic and good looking and with a monster cock, so I accept him willingly, and he gave me the fuck of my life, right there and then, I became a Slut for BBC, he started fucking me very hard and deep, and at some point I started squirting with his shaft deep inside me, and he told me that squirting so hard is something a true slut does, but every time he was so deep inside me, I was a squirting so much, that he was laughing all the time and calling me slut, which was something I was in love with.

I was drenched in cum everyday by his BBC, with my holes wet, creamy, used and abused by him, so he told me I was his fucktoy and told me I was built for BBC, because of my big tits, round ass and hungry mouth for cum, and because I was able to be fill by his 11' monster cock with a immense girth.

Jerome was using me everyday as he desires and yesterday he told me I was ready to be a public cumdump for BBC, I did not understand him, but he told me to be prepared, and he left me a Santa Helper dress, he told me to be at a place the next day, so a bunch of his friends could have a day with me, making me their Santa helper to be fucked and passed around. He told me that if I did this every BBC in town will find out and they will want me to be gangbanged....he ask me if that's something that I want, but I am scared and I am not sure if that is what I truly crave, so I told him I will think about it, but then he got mad and told me he will not fuck me until I made my mind, that he knew I was made and ready to be a true Slut for BBCs, giving myself entirely for them,...so I am thinking about it....

What do you think I should do? Can you please help me and let me know?

P.S.: While I am deciding what to do, I will love to be cumtribute, and I will love to read nasty and filthy comments about me, since it gets me very horny, while I am playing with big dildoes and try to cum hard, since Jerome does not wants to fuck me deep....